Yesterday, October 31, 2011, my mom left this world.
I wasn't ready for her to go.
My dad wasn't ready for her to go.
My brothers weren't ready for her to go.
I don't believe my mom was ready to go.
But God was ready for her.
When I spoke to her Sunday,
I had no idea it would be,
the last time.
My mom and I spoke a lot.
Always ending our conversations with,
"I love you mama."
"I love you too sweetheart, and thanks for calling."
I won't ever hear that again.
Had I known that would be the last time
I would hear my mom's
sweet southern accent,
I would have made that conversation last forever.
I have talked to her numerous times since she left.
She hasn't talked back yet.
I still hold out hope,
that somehow,
I will feel her and know she hears me,
and will "talk" back to me.
I ask her how to take care of my daddy, like she did.
What am I to cook him to eat.
How do I make sure he takes his medication on time.
How do I make sure he just.........
Oh Momma, I have so much to say to you,
but no words to say it.
I love you,
and my heart is
breaking.
Oh Deb - I am so sorry. Your loving post brought tears to my eyes. Can we ever be ready to lose our mother who has nurtured us since birth? My heart is heavy knowing the pain you are going through, and knowing that is the only way to get through it. I lost my mother two years ago November 11th. The hole never goes away. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteWeep with those who weep ~ Romans 12:15
Connie LOU
Oh, sweet Deb, my heart
ReplyDeleteis just breaking for you.
As Connie says in her comment,
no one can ever be ready for
this day to come. I can't even
bear to think about it. Be very
gentle with yourself as you
move forward in the coming
days, weeks and years. Your
mama was a beautiful lady and
her love will always be a part
of you. Sending you hugs and
prayers....
xx Suzanne