I Am Human Too

All my life I have been the happy person.  The person who never gets mad, always is smiling, laughing, cheering everyone up.  I refuse to shake hands with people when I first meet them, I'm a hugger.

I am sure I intrude into many people's personal bubbles by hugging them, but that's just me.

I don't wear much makeup, but I can wear the crap out of a smile.  Yep that's me, Miss Happy Go Lucky.

Or they might call me the Life of the Party.  Always ready to have fun and risk looking stupid no matter what.  As long as I make you laugh, it's all good.



Singing and Dancing in the rain at my wedding reception.



I am known for my smile and my positive attitude.  I generally let the small stuff roll off my back and knew not to sweat the small stuff long before that became a popular saying.  I am just a happy, smiley person.




 

 Sooooooo, when things start getting a little stressful for me, and I make a picture like this my profile picture on Facebook, people get a little concerned. They say they are worried about me and ask if I am okay.  Now i don't think i look that unhappy in this picture, just contemplative and in thought.  That isn't always a bad thing.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 

And forget about when I put this picture up for my profile picture.  People REALLY FREAK OUT when I use this one.  I don't think it looks all that sad, it's artsy and yes my eyes look haunted but that's kind of cool.  Don't ya think?



Haunted eyes.



Today at work, we had a staff meeting, and for maybe the second time in the history of the 9 years I have worked in this office, i gave my honest opinion of how I thought things were going.  Apparently, I," Miss happy go lucky", actually SCARED people with my tone of voice and the things i said.  It isn't any secret to anyone who reads this post that i have been a little frustrated with the direction my life has been heading and that I have been more than ready for a change.  I still love nursing, but have not loved our situation at work for about the past 12 months or so.  Perhaps I am PMSing this week, it's really hard to keep up with being pre-menopausal and all, but today i just had to vent.  And maybe because I don't have a lot of practice at it, I may not do it in a very controlled manner.  Or, perhaps it's because I don't ever do it, that when I do, I freak people out.  Well, let me just say, I don't really like myself when i get to that point.  My stomach hurts, my head feels like it is going to explode wide open, and today my cheeks turned bright red and I am sure if I were to check, my blood pressure was off the charts which it NEVER is.  And the worst part, probably nothing was resolved and nothing will change so it was all for not. 

Now, I am home, i am venting about my venting, and it makes me feel better.  Next I am going to go get my Art Journal and work on that some more and then go make homemade pizza for dinner.  Please don't worry if i post a profile picture of myself that isn't of me smiling.  I am still the happy girl but I am human too, and i have my crappy days just like everyone else.  Sometimes they are just in the shape of a square and those don't roll off my back very well.  Have a happy evening everyone and a great Friday tomorrow.