Life As Deb Knows It!!!!!!: Time Lost and Never to Be Re-gained

Time can be so cruel. Snatching away pieces of our lives that we never get back. Memories that fade and only with the help of photos or written words are those memories jolted back into place. Regrets are of no use as they serve no purpose. Thinking of how I would do things differently is of no use either because those choices are what brought me to this very wonderful place I am in my life. And I have to believe that even though it may be unconventional, and not the way I had expected my life to play out, it is just what it is suppose to be.

Summer of 2002

THESE words are not coming out like they are suppose to. What I am basically trying to say is I miss my kids. I miss not having them with me everyday, I miss the past 9 years that they haven't been with me everyday. I HATE that I have a 20 year old who I never see or get to talk to, but whom I send text messages to and leave voice mails for weekly regardless. I HATE that I have an 18 year old who is a freshman in college and who is so self-sufficient that he doesn't need me on a daily basis (actually, I don't really hate this because I am so proud of him my heart could burst, but it tugs on my heart strings at the same time.) Then there are my "babies", my 16 and 14 year old babies that is. The last two who have to talk to me on a daily basis because they are still close by and haven't become complete independent souls. I know all moms go through this, and it does make us proud when our children grow up, move on and can handle their own lives. It's what our jobs as parents is really all about, preparing them for the outside world. But why does it hurt so damn much to let them go? I know what my answer is, it's because I have been robbed of so many of the times I should have had. We have had SO MANY wonderful times and memories, but there could have been so many more.

We are a little different

2009 The boys and our Beauty. Trying to do a family photo which the boys are always so happy to do, hahahaha.

Beautiful snowy day.

A first for us all....zip-lining. SOOOOO much fun and so glad I had them to do it with me.

The best groomsmen a girl for ask for. One of the HAPPIEST days of my life.
May 22, 2010

Celebrating with family in Williamsburg. A new beginning.

These are just a few of the many times we spend together. I don't have a scanner so there are many pictures I don't have on my computer to share. These are all wonderful times, even if we aren't all together for each get together. That's what happens when kids grow up, they go off on their own, as they should, and are not always available when we want them to be. These times just go by way too fast. I WISH there was a way to SLOW down time, so each moment could last a little longer. We don't get these days back, we get more days to make new memories, but we can never get back the time.

My first born and the reason I wanted so many more, my sweet, sweet Garrett.

So many of my friends are just starting out their families, so many of my blogging friends have children much younger than my own. For all of these friends, I have one thing to say. ENJOY and CHERISH each and everyday. Don't let the little things stress you out and fight til the end for your family. Our children are the greatest gift we could ever receive. Everyday is a another chance to make a difference in their lives and to show how much they are loved and wanted in our lives.