Busco's Joy....Final Day and I Find My Word

 Sunday, September 16, 2012

There were a few things I wanted to make sure I got to do before leaving the Ranch.  One was riding horses up to the "Chisum Tree", those of you who are familiar with the John Wayne movie called Chisum will completely understand this.  I also insisted on being able to see Sandra and Tag's chicken coop since the lovely chicks were right across from our Room #7.  I wanted to see how Montana Chickies lived.  And, lastly, I had to come up with my word that would describe the pure joy and contentment I was experiencing through the entire trip.

First was the coop.  Sandra took me over early in the morning before the chicks had even been let out, so I was able to take some pictures of them and then let them out of their coop.  Again, my flash wasn't working so these aren't great, but I kind of like how they were silhouetted in these shots.  Above is the rooster who oddly enough, looks so very much like my handsome Maxwell's daddy.  Pretty neat huh?

I loved the rustic feel to the coop, which is actually in the back of the horse barn.  I think I will be able to adjust quite well to how Montana Chicks live when the day comes for me to have chicks in Montana. 

Our final ride for the trip was one that Anne and I had been begging for.  On the property, there is a lone tree.  Both my husband and Anne's husband are HUGE fans of John Wayne, it's the country boy in them.  One of the all time best John Wayne movies is called Chisum.

 

 

 This is the closing scene in the movie.  John Wayne is under a lone tree overlooking his land which is down in a valley from the tree.  When Anne and David had been to the Ranch a few years ago, they fell in love with Blacktail's version of what we call the Chisum Tree and Anne really wanted me to see it and get a chance to take the beautiful ride up to the tree.  So, Dan promised to take us the morning of our last day and anyone else who wanted to ride along was more than welcome.  It was a gorgeous morning and all of the lovely ladies joined in the ride.

 
The ride was our most challenging of the entire weekend, and I LOVED it.  I was given a different horse to ride, which ironically was Anne's husband's favorite horse at the Ranch.  The views were amazing as we rode.  Eventually, our destination came into view. 

It was so cool to be able to see where we were headed and how far away it was. We pointed it out to the other girls that were riding with us, but I am not sure any of them had ever seen the movie, so they didn't quite get it, at first. 

Then, as we got up to it, the wind picked up, and the views were amazing and they all GOT IT.  This tree seems to just be growing out of rock and is all alone.  We don't know how old it is or anything else about it.  But I am sure if John Wayne could go to Blacktail and see it, he too would say it looks just like the tree in Chisum.  Once you are at the top, the view down below is breath taking.  I just sat on my horse and stared out into the openness in complete disbelief that places like this existed.

I took a picutre of Anne that resembled John Wayne's closing scene. She thought David would like this a lot.

 



Now that dog in the picture up there, that is Busco.  The sweet amazing dog who belongs to one of our wranglers, McKenzie.  Busco is without a doubt the happiest dog I have ever seen.  Every morning he greeted us with a stick for us to throw for him, and when we went riding, Busco was right there with us, running his sweet little heart out.  He would run from the front of the riders where Dan was, all the way to the back of the riders where his master, McKenzie, was.  Back and forth the whole 2-3  hours we would be riding.  And when we got back to the stables, he would find a stick and bring it to us so we could play with him some more.  This dog had more energy than any living thing I have ever seen.  I mentioned to McKenzie on our final ride that morning that Busco had such an amazing life and was such a great dog.  McKenzie said that she had just said that morning that if she could just bottle up Busco's happiness and sell it to people, she would be a millionaire.  It was right there and then that I knew what my level of happiness and contentment in Montana was called......Busco's Joy.
I told everyone in the group that I finally had my word, or two words as it turned out.  Everyone there understood because they had seen how much Busco loved life and enjoyed being in the wide open spaces and the freedom of Montana.  I knew I wouldn't find my word until my trip was almost over and I was right.  But Busco's Joy is not something I wish to only have while in Montana.  That amount of joy and happiness is something I am trying to attain in my everyday life.  No matter how big or small my days are, I want to wake up that happy everyday and live each moment the best I can. 

On our way back to the Ranch at the end of our ride, we rode past a small pond.  I saw something peering through the tall grasses on the other side of the pond and pointed it out to the other riders.  I stopped my horse and realized it was a Moose, drinking water from the pond.  I struggled to get my camera out, but my horse didn't want to stand still and I lost my opportunity.  But others saw it too and I was okay with that.  It was so awesome though to end my trip with actually seeing a Moose up close.  On our rides I had seen cattle, bear, deer and now a moose.  Pretty cool.

Once we were back at the Ranch, it was time to pack up our things, say our good byes and head on down the road.  We had to go back to Helena so that we could catch our plane Monday morning.  We were going to take the scenic route back and go through Augusta.  I went outside and sat on the bench in front of the Ranch to have a few minutes to myself.  I was beginning to get a little weepy at the thought of having to leave and telling my new friends good bye.  I am SO AWFUL at good-byes.  While I was sitting on that bench, I felt my mom leave me again.  I knew she had been with me through the whole trip.  It was a trip my mom would never ever have wanted to go on when she was alive, but i guess in the after life, she has become a little more brave.  I felt her presence when we arrived in Helena, I felt her in the Hogan when we were doing yoga, she was holding me in her arms in the cave, knowing how terrified I am of the dark, and she was with me on my last ride.  Heck, she may have even been with me at the 7R when I was dancing with that sweet little man, which is why I never stepped on his feet.  But when it was all over and I was sitting on that bench, I could tell she was ready to go back, and share her adventures with her loved ones and an emptiness I hadn't felt the whole 5 days, washed over me again.  I shed a few tears, collected myself and thanked her for being with me and remembered Busco's Joy. 

Anne and I packed up the car and off we went.  The drive to Augusta was beautiful.  I don't think I will ever get use to the "highways" of Monatana.  Being able to stop in the middle of the highway to take pictures like these is unheard of where I live.  These last few pictures are a few of the beautiful things I saw and our final shopping destination, Latigo and Lace.  It was here that I bought Robby his birthday present for his upcoming birthday this month.  But I can't show you what it is because he just may be nosey enough to read this and find out.

 

 



Anne and I made it back to Helena, checked into a hotel across the street from the airport and then went out to dinner at a wonderful restaurant called Silver Star.  We had yummy blood orange martinis, elk medallions and chicken sesame wraps.  It was a perfect ending to a perfect day and we were both ready to climb into bed and be ready to fly home early the next morning.  As much as I was loving Montana, I was missing my sweet husband so very much and could not wait to get home and share everything with him. 

 

This trip had a huge impact on me.  I knew it would probably affect me in some ways, but was not expecting all the different ways.  I will be eternally grateful to Anne for getting me to go on this trip with her.  The timing was perfect.  With the 1st anniversary of my mom's death coming up in two weeks, I try to remember the trip and how it felt knowing she was with me and remembering that whenever I need her, she is still here with me.  I play back that day last year over and over again in my head and it still seems unreal.  I look at my mom's picture that I clung too all day long on that day, and I still can't believe she is gone.  She lived her life to the fullest every single day including her very last morning.  That is what Montana reminded me to do, live each day to it's fullest.  Be present and in the moment, even if it is at work with a bunch of two year olds who are grumpy and tired and not riding horses through amazing country side.  Each moment, each day, is a gift and we never know when it is our last.  I look at the mountains that surround me with a different perspective now.  They are so beautiful yet so different than the mountains in Montana.  We have so much green and lush vegetation growing on our mountains.  I didn't look at them closely enough before, or at least once I got use to them being there.  Now every morning, I make sure when I am driving to work that I notice them and the way the sun shines on the trees and casts shadows across the valley.  I am so lucky to be living where I live.

 

I hope you have enjoyed following my trip to Montana.  I am glad I have this memoir to come back to and re-live each day I was there.